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is this the end
01:18
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"the end is built into the beginning"
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now you know
04:19
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if someone ever believed in me, i wouldn’t believe it
cuz I can’t see how that can be
they must leave to find... something... better eventually
who wants someone that is consumed with anxiety?
when will her eyes look into mine?
when will my mind just shut up?
each time I cry I feel like I can’t survive
and I know that she knows that I love her now
and now you know, oh no
guess my love is still quiet and unrequited
and i am so used to it by now in fact if
someone came along and said that i was wrong
that i could be loved would i really be enough
or would i just sing way too many songs??
when will her eyes look into mine?
when will my mind just shut up?
each time I cry I feel like I can’t survive
and I know that she knows that I love her now
and now you know, oh no
it hurts when she can’t get closer
when she can’t come over
when we consider this… close?
my love is quiet and unrequited
now you know, you know, you know
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keep you in mind
04:01
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good morning i’m sorry
for being fucking needy
cursed to the crooked earth
like a meteor i just keep right on falling
but the satellite hangs so high
hear the honey bees, hummin electricity
inside a welcoming hive
thought that you could be mine
make me feel alright
some things don’t last a long time
but i guess that is fine
there’s no use crying about trying
to keep you in mind
eyes like the sky cloudy with a past i can’t deny
still in mourning but you adored me mostly in the night
tv glowing always knowing you might go and i’d be alone
i only wanted love to manifest
i confess to my restlessness
(i'm glad you're happy nonetheless)
thought that you could be mine
make me feel alright
some things don’t last a long time
but i guess that is fine
there’s no use crying about trying
to keep you in mind
reality isn’t always what it seems
and then i crash into an unreal dream
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we can go
03:42
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time never has the time
to help me find a little peace of mind
i wanna message you in the middle of the night
just to say please don’t go away
not tomorrow not today
there’s gotta be something beautiful we can create
so what do you say?
i know I said that I’m much better off alone
in my room lost in the sounds of my piano
i dreamed of leaving then hitting the open road
but the truth is I always knew you would feel like home
i look forward to showing you where we can go (now we can go)
not enough hours in the day
to say how much you mean to me
i don’t have a lot but if I could I would
give you anything to make love everlasting
all I ask is for a moment to let you know
someday it’s going to be okay
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dependable company
03:38
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if there’s a time when you lose your mind
then come and find me
don’t know if I’ll say the right thing
but I will listen endlessly
can’t get past the nonsense
let’s make sense of it
all this violence screaming with the silence
it gets deafening
let’s talk for hours or watch movies
i can cook or order something
i just want good-old fashioned dependable company
get our minds off of everything
when i was in high school
friends all lived in walking distance
i could escape and not be lonely
but i was okay with being alone
now i know that you struggle
we all need a little empathy
don’t want to lose control
we just wanna be comfortable!
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another misspent saturday night
we just couldn’t seem to get it right
no no no no no no no no no
the flames were out of their minds
but at least they were lightning bright
couldn’t burn all of the buildings down
there are far too many now
there has got to be a way out
all i know is how to go down
those crazy decimals are gonna crash
while the rich sit back and laugh
we can carry the kerosene, yeah
but will it change anything in the end?
where is the harmony
that all the music promised me?
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7. |
escape control delete
04:19
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couldn’t fall asleep
so i would always eat
delivery person came to satiate the need
didn’t feel good enough
for sex or any kind of love
escape is always what makes sense to me
in a war with desire
i saw so many casualties
ignored all the battle cries
i just sat around and watched TV
so many ways to escape the pain
can’t control the real disease
it could be all the self-loathing
that keeps me from going forward
felt afraid and bored
but the outside world keeps on turning
that’s gotta mean something
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bright side
03:24
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nothing i can say
to take the lightning strikes away
i adore the storm it’s a part of you anyway
i don’t mind the rain, it clears eventually
all the pain that you hide
and it makes you stay inside
if you know what you need, please tell me
you deserve to feel alright
another trip to the clinic
you may need another hand to hold
aching thoughts and quiet panic be damned
an open heart can be a home
i don’t know why
when i look into your brown eyes
that’s the time that i am the most alive
love is the sun, hope you can see the bright side
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new joy
03:16
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there’s way too much
to keep up with
so many words so much division
consume by noon all of the information
i’m losing track of all this
and i don’t know what can be done
to get back to normal again
whatever that is
for now
let me calm down
inside of the sound of you
sleeping on the couch
tears of joy come out
when i think of all that you do
to make this world better, it’s true
there’s new joy coming
i just have to believe
there’s new joy coming
i wanna see where this love can take me
i want to believe in something other than nothing
come to me to ignore all the fools that stay angry
typing thoughts that cannot ever make sense to me
i just want to leave and listen to you smiling
there’s new joy coming
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beauty daze
03:58
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can we believe in change
everything always seems to stay the same
i have to make money
wish I could just love for a living
want to help more than i do
i know they have to help themselves too
there’s got to be more solidarity
and not just on a computer screen
more conversations that don’t get ugly
i still see the beauty in everything
I just wish our hearts were more open
to anything’s that is different
maybe a loved one that struggles with what’s given
whether it be a body or a mind that can’t seem to stay consistent
in the meantime, may you find some kind of comfort and connection
with a partner or some friends
when thoughts get distraught and intrusive
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no worries
02:52
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i know my voice needs work
but i still have to sing
can’t always think of words
a head full of tall buildings
there’s so much love
i want to fall
but i’m so scared
no one will catch me at all
walking around downtown
wonder about all the stories
do they all feel so lost
saying hello with no worries
there’s so much love
i want to fall
but i’m so worried
no one will catch me at all
to say no worries feels all wrong
inside a city with fractured walls
tired cars in a hurry to stay underground
missing friends i only see on a screen
i want many reasons to keep living
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12. |
letting go, etc.
03:21
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i still want to call
you anyway
even though you said
i lied and that’s not okay
you were right
my therapist said
to delete you off my contacts list
so i did, so i did, so i did
there’s so much i want to say
you moved on yesterday
i can’t bring your favorite coffee
i should probably save the money
you said i should let go
can you teach me how
i know you know
longing doesn’t solve anything
but i’ve been practicing
since you stopped texting
or instant messaging
i think about you in my bed
how we laughed at the skulls with joshua jackson
falling in love will never make sense
but falling out of it feels like bullshit
though i know it always happens
i am letting go as i write this
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13. |
a.l
03:17
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maybe you were born to strum
songs on a porch at your cabin
you’re a work of art that defies all words
you’re a gorgeous sight for eyes that hurt
i wish i could just call or text
even as a local friend
but i'm hoping to play a lullaby
next to you in another life
we all want someone who
can sing all the things that we can’t say
or at the very least hear a voice
that won’t ever go away
i know it isn’t love
i will never know you more
your songs come from above
there is so much to adore
If you’ll indulge me now
i still would like to think about
the beginning of you and me
resting softly in the morning
while i make some french press coffee
walk under the lake shore sky
see some friends for movie night
and we’ll go home play some records
this is a dream i like discovering
i’m hoping to play a lullaby
next to you in another life
you stole my heart but you’ll never know
all songs must end, so it’s time to go
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14. |
a new beginning
03:25
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i know it's time to move forward
a new beginning is coming.
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Greg Kot of Sound Opinions & The Chicago Tribune., described one of g.o.a.t's records as "Tucked with introspective lyrics
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